What would you do
differently tomorrow if you won the lottery for more money than you could ever
spend? What would you do differently
tomorrow if you found out you didn't have too many tomorrows left? Well today I
found out that I don't have too many tomorrows left. So, I will try to treat
each day as though I won the lottery. I have always said that if I won, I would
still work at Costco, that working there is more fun than work. I'm constantly
surrounded by so many loving coworkers and members. It's hard to explain the
happiness I feel.
Today, I
went to the oncologist and found out that my kidney cancer has spread to my
bones. The average person lives about two and a half years after being
diagnosed. I will be doing an IV treatment, which is far better than chemo. The
IV treatment will hopefully slow down the cancer.
I feel this
is a gift. I have prayed on more than one occasion for God to take me quickly
and not to slowly wither away to turn into a vegetable like my mother, who had
Multiple Sclerosis and died a slow death. I can't tell you how deeply it hurt
my grandmother and me to see her die like that. We unintentionally stopped
going to see her. I do not wish for my wife to remember me like that or have
that guilt that I carry. I want her to remember the me I was when I was
healthy.
I believe
to die is to live forever with Jesus, and that is far better than winning any
lottery. The sad part is leaving my wife
behind. She is the kindest, sweetest person I have ever known. I pray that I can spend eternity with her. One
lifetime isn't enough.
-ARLIE-
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